my body has gone back to normal. Period-wise. They

are coming like clockwork again. Thank GOD..

I am still keeping hope alive that this will

work for me. I went to my doc for my annual and she

told me to "relax". If one more person tells me to

relax i am going to scream.. How much relaxing do

they want me to do????? Like i said, I am trying to meditate in

the morning so that should help me to "relax". Gosh.

I keep track of my periods, When the doc says...

"when was the first day of your period"... i just don't look

at her stupidly and say...."duh, I dont know."My doctor was

telling me about an adoption agency in Macon...I want to adopt..

there is still the problem with the cost though.

I believe that it is important to have something that takes your mind off of what is bothering you. I am starting to meditate and it is actually to clear my mind regarding issues that I am having. I found a doctor in Atlanta – Reproductive Biology that charges 12k for IVF and their hours seem reasonable too. I took a position that allows me to work 10-7 p.m. so that I can go to the doctor and not worry about coming in late and taking all of my personal and vacation time (which right now I have none). So I need to clear some credit things up and make sure everything is ok and then I am going to apply for the IVF and document everything.

Stay Tuned

Starting Again

I put about 4200.00 on a credit card for infertility treatments and meds, so I got a new job and a part-time job to pay everything off. I am going to apply to get my loan in Jan, right after the holidays. I want to make sure my credit is good and everything goes ok. I just got a copy of my credit report and if there is anything that I need to clean up, I will do it now.

So I am working working working..

But it ok. Though.

I recently got a puppy and it is a lot of work but I love it. It doesn't stop me from wanting a child, but it takes the edge off. I feel better and not so crazy.