Saturday, November 17, 2007
Starting Again
So I am working working working..
But it ok. Though.
I recently got a puppy and it is a lot of work but I love it. It doesn't stop me from wanting a child, but it takes the edge off. I feel better and not so crazy.
Friday, September 14, 2007
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PLEASE SIGN THIS PETITION - WE NEED YOUR HELP!!!
Go to http://www.petitiononline.com/FI200507/petition.html
To: U.S. Congress
We, the undersigned, urge you to co-sponsor and/or support the Family Building Act of 2005 (H.R. 735). This act will amend the Public Health Service Act, the Employee Retirement Income Security Act of 1974, and chapter 89 of title 5, United States Code to require that all health plans cover the diagnosis and treatment of infertility. Infertility treatments include ovulation induction, artificial insemination, in vitro fertilization (IVF), gamete intrafallopian transfer (ZIFT), intracytoplasmic sperm injection (ICSI), and other "non-experimental" treatments. You may view the bill in its entirety by visiting http://thomas.loc.gov and searching for H.R. 735.
By supporting the Family Building Act of 2005 (HR.735) you would help millions of Americans. Infertility is a disease that affects over 6.1 million people, approximately 10% of the population of reproductive age. For most, raising a family is one of the most basic human desires. Unfortunately the infertile population are frequently denied insurance coverage for their disease. Insurance companies either do not offer coverage or have infertility riders, which employers can opt to decline. Depending on a couple's financial means, infertile Americans either do not get treatment or spend years with both financial and emotional stress in an attempt to conceive.
Historically, insurance companies did not offer coverage, because infertility treatments, such as IVF, were considered experimental and not highly effective. Now in 2005, IVF and other reproductive technologies have been in use for over 20 years. More than 72,000 babies have been born in the United States using assisted reproductive technologies since 1980. Advanced Reproductive Technology (ART)is no longer experimental and can be extremely effective in conceiving a child. Why then are insurance companies permitted to omit coverage for our reproductive systems, when they are required to offer coverage for our other critical health needs?
We, the people who have signed this petition, believe that the government and insurance companies have denied us vital medical coverage for infertility long enough. We believe that H.R. 389 should be made into law to aid us in early diagnosis and treatment of this disease. Please pass H.R. 389 so that we all have the opportunity to fulfill our basic human desire to become parents.
Thank You
Sincerely,
Thursday, September 13, 2007
A "Little" Depression Setting in
I think that I am starting to become a little depressed.
I feel as if I am wasting money and I am getting nothing accomplished. Not to mention that it is taking a personal toll on me. I am trying to stay positive, though..
My husband has mentioned and wanted to talk to me about how I feel, but I don't to talk to him or anyone else.
Even my boss said to me, are you ok? You look tired..
I am.
I am barely sleeping at night now. I cry quite a bit to myself off and on. This time it is going to take a bit longer for me to pull myself together.
I guess I am worried. Worried that I will never have children.. and scared of the fact that if I have another unsuccessful IUI I will have to start more aggressive treatments like IVF and
only God knows how I am going to afford that.
I am angry because I feel as if I waited too long.. I am angry at myself. I think that I am going to throw myself in a hobby to lift my spirits.. and get my mind off of this.
I am really angry. I think if this doesn't work this time, I am going to look for another doc. The doctor I have right now, I can't afford his IVF rates.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
THE SECOND ATTEMPT UNSUCCESSFUL
This morning, I cried.
I took a pregnancy test for this round of IUI and it came out NEGATIVE again.
At this point I don't know what to do.. I contacted the doctor and I am going to have a consultation with him..
I think I will try one more time..
After that.. I guess IVF?
I am getting in so much debt. I have been applying for another second job again to offset the costs.
Today I am depressed. I just don't understand..
I had a little bleeding not much on day 9th after my IUI and it said in a book that this occurs... day 7 -9..
My breasts have been so sore and really hurting. I feel completely different from the first time. I haven't cramped a lot or anything.
My body is acting so crazy now, I can't read any of its signs any longer.
I just dont know what to do..
meds are 130.00
iui 975
plus sperm costs - free or not...
TOTAL AMOUNT IN DEBT - paid for meds out of my pocket - what I have to pay off???
$2950.00
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
STILL WAITING
Still Waiting.
I am scared to test myself.
Gosh.
My birthday is coming up on the 9th and that would be a great birthday present. I will probably wait another week before I test..