My Second Attempt

Ok. I had an appointment at 7 a.m. in the morning and my doctor didn't do the IUI and other lady... Nurse?  did it.. She was very nice..

(I know the drill....by now)

Get undress the waist down.

lie on the table with your legs in the stirups... scoot to the end and you bottom is in the air.

Then..

She uses that thing to open you up (speculum?).. she had to change it because she said the first one she picked was too short and she said some women has long vaginal areas...

anyway, she did the normal "pap smear" thing .... and used a swab to do something, then she took the sperm in the tube and inserted it..

she was telling me that the vaginal area - cervix has a lot of groves, canals.... so she needed to put it in the right area.  She elevated my hips to smooth out the area... and then used her hand to press on my abdomen.. she said sometimes this helps... to smooth the area so that she can get the tube in the correct place.

When she released the sperm

it was so strange. I could feel it...almost like water or something...

She said that would probably cramp a little, but take tylenol...

She was done..

I laid there for about 10 minutes with my hips elevated... and she came in and told me that the sperm looked really really good and she will keep her fingers crossed. She said that she hoped it definitely
works considering the amount of money... I have to invest..

So I left and got into my car and went to work...  It doesn't take a long time.

She told me to call back today and schedule projesterone..checkup.  I have to come in for a blood test.

Then I can test for pregnancy....10 to 14 days from now..

That is right on my birthday weekend......37 years old..

NO WAY>

I am not testing until the 10th or later.....

I can wait..

I can wait if it is bad news..

I am going to relax... and try not let things get to me..

Stay quiet.. and hopefully it will work.

I have to cross my fingers and toes...

I want to have at least two children... Hopefully before 40.

ON the road to Baby

My took a long time to start my period and I took clomid for 5 days again.. This time when I went in for an ultrasound, they took a sample of blood and checked my estrogen levels.
I was called last night and the said that it looked good.

He checked for the follicals and this time he said "WOW! That was fast, I see one that is 26"  - I am assuming that is the size.. a measurement. He saw 18,18, 18, 16, 10... I believe. So it is about 5 follicals again.

Then he told me to take the Gonadotropin injection at 10:00 p.m. that night.. Remember the last time he wanted me to wait for a couple of days but this time... it was much quicker.

So, had to do the injection myself, which I was kind of concerned.

When I did the injection ...

I had to take a bigger needle and inject it into the water.. take out 1cc and then put that 1 cc into the other bottle with the powder. I mixed it up and changed the needles to a smaller one. Then I took
the bottle that has the mixture in it and turned it upside down and stuck the needle in - to draw out the liquid. I had to make sure that there was no bubbles and I got out everything.. Then I injected myself.

On tv when you see people (drug addicts....usually) thump the needle with the liquid in it.. it is to clear out any bubbles.. to break them up.

I injected that into the "fatty" part of my hip and then I pulled it out.

This was Monday - 8/27... I had my IUI today..

Second day of clomid..

I feel ok. The very first cycle that I had with clomid my stomach was cramping and hurting somewhat.. Almost like a beginning of a period. I felt a lot of cramping during that time. I was also
warm..

Today I feel ok. Nothing strange to report. I guess my body is getting used to it.

Clomid - Starts today

I didn't have time to purchase clomid through one of the pharmacies that I have listed.. The cost (walgreens + insurance)

$49.99  (cash)

I wonder how many milligrams?  last time I took 100

At the end of the year, I am going to my pharmacy and doctor and get a printout of what I bought and see if I can take this off my taxes.

The injectable is 53.99  - i will probably get that on Friday... payday!

I took this vaginally..

You take a pill and put it on your finger.. You push it up as far as you can through you vaginally walls.. Not fun!

But I called my doc and I was told to do it this way.

You do have a little seepage in your underwear but not much.

 You need to take the pills at night before you go to bed when are ready to lay down for the night.  I was scared because I read all of this below and it scared me to death.

Everything went ok.  Suprisingly, I did not have any problems at all.  Everything went smooth.


Drug Information: Progesterone

URL of this page: http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/druginfo/medmaster/a604017.html

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Why is this medication prescribed?

Progesterone is used as a part of hormone replacement therapy in women who have passed menopause (the change of life) and have not had a hysterectomy (surgery to remove the uterus). Hormone replacement therapy usually includes estrogen, which is used to treat symptoms of menopause and reduce the risk of developing certain diseases. However, estrogen can also cause abnormal thickening of the lining of the uterus and increase the risk of developing uterine cancer. Progesterone helps to prevent this thickening and decreases the risk of developing uterine cancer. Progesterone is also used to bring on menstruation (period) in women of childbearing age who have had normal periods and then stopped menstruating. Progesterone is in a class of medications called progestins (female hormones). It works as part of hormone replacement therapy by decreasing the amount of estrogen in the uterus. It works to bring on menstruation by replacing the natural progesterone that some women are missing.

How should this medicine be used?

Progesterone comes as a capsule to take by mouth. It is usually taken once a day in the evening or at bedtime. You will probably take progesterone on a rotating schedule that alternates 10-12 days when you take progesterone with 16-18 days when you do not take the medication. Your doctor will tell you exactly when to take progesterone. To help you remember to take progesterone, take it around the same time in the evening. Follow the directions on your prescription label carefully, and ask your doctor or pharmacist to explain any part you do not understand. Take progesterone exactly as directed. Do not take more or less of it or take it more often than prescribed by your doctor.

Continue to take progesterone as directed even if you feel well. Do not stop taking progesterone without talking to your doctor.

Other uses for this medicine

This medication may be prescribed for other uses; ask your doctor or pharmacist for more information.

What special precautions should I follow?

Before taking progesterone,

• tell your doctor and pharmacist if you are allergic to progesterone, oral contraceptives (birth control pills), hormone replacement therapy, any other medications, or peanuts.
• tell your doctor and pharmacist what other prescription and nonprescription medications, vitamins, and nutritional supplements you are taking. Be sure to mention any of the following: amiodarone (Cordarone, Pacerone); antifungals such as fluconazole (Diflucan), itraconazole (Sporanox), and ketoconazole (Nizoral); cimetidine (Tagamet); clarithromycin (Biaxin); cyclosporine (Neoral, Samdimmune); danazol (Danocrine); delaviridine (Rescriptor); diltiazem (Cardizem, Dilacor, Tiazac); erythromycin (E.E.S, E-Mycin, Erythrocin); fluoxetine (Prozac, Sarafem); fluvoxamine (Luvox); HIV protease inhibitors such as indinavir (Crixivan), ritonavir (Norvir), and saquinavir (Fortovase); isoniazid (INH, Nydrazid); lansoprazole (Prevacid, Prevpac); metronidazole (Flagyl); nefazodone (Serzone); omeprazole (Prilosec); oral contraceptives (birth control pills); ticlopidine (Ticlid); troleandomycin (TAO); verapamil (Calan, Covera, Isoptin, Verelan); and zafirlukast (Accolate). Your doctor may need to change the doses of your medications or monitor you carefully for side effects.
• tell your doctor what herbal products you are taking, especially St. John's wort.
• tell your doctor if you have or have ever had unexplained vaginal bleeding between periods; a miscarriage in which some tissue was left in the uterus; cancer of the breasts or female organs; seizures; migraine headaches; asthma; diabetes; depression; blood clots in the legs, lungs, eyes, brain, or anywhere in the body; stroke or ministroke; vision problems; or liver, kidney, heart, or gallbladder disease .
• tell your doctor if you are pregnant, plan to become pregnant, or are breast-feeding. If you become pregnant while taking progesterone, call your doctor.
• if you are having surgery, including dental surgery, tell the doctor or dentist that you are taking progesterone.
• you should know that progesterone may make you dizzy or drowsy. Do not drive a car or operate machinery until you know how this medication affects you. If progesterone does make you dizzy or drowsy, take your daily dose at bedtime.
• you should know that progesterone may cause dizziness, lightheadedness, and fainting when you get up too quickly from a lying position. This is more common when you first start taking progesterone. To avoid this problem, get out of bed slowly, resting your feet on the floor for a few minutes before standing up.

What special dietary instructions should I follow?

Talk to your doctor about drinking grapefruit juice while taking this medication.

What should I do if I forget a dose?

Take the missed dose as soon as you remember it. However, if it is almost time for the next dose, skip the missed dose and continue your regular dosing schedule. Do not take a double dose to make up for a missed one.

What side effects can this medication cause?

Progesterone may cause side effects. Tell your doctor if any of these symptoms are severe or do not go away:

• headache
• breast tenderness or pain
• upset stomach
• vomiting
• diarrhea
• constipation
• tiredness
• muscle, joint, or bone pain
• mood swings
• irritability
• excessive worrying
• runny nose
• sneezing
• cough
• vaginal discharge
• problems urinating

Some side effects can be serious. The following symptoms are uncommon, but if you experience any of them, call your doctor immediately:

• breast lumps
• migraine headache
• severe dizziness or faintness
• slow or difficult speech
• weakness or numbness of an arm or leg
• lack of coordination or loss of balance
• shortness of breath
• fast heartbeat
• sharp chest pain
• coughing up blood
• leg swelling or pain
• loss of vision or blurred vision
• bulging eyes
• double vision
• unexpected vaginal bleeding
• shaking hands that you cannot control
• seizures
• stomach pain or swelling
• depression
• hives
• skin rash
• itching
• difficulty breathing or swallowing
• swelling of the face, throat, tongue, lips, eyes, hands, feet, ankles, or lower legs
• hoarseness

Laboratory animals who were given progesterone developed tumors. It is not known if progesterone increases the risk of tumors in humans. Talk to your doctor about the risks of taking this medication.

Medications like progesterone may cause abnormal blood clotting. This may cut off the blood supply to the brain, heart, lungs, or eyes and cause serious problems. Call your doctor if you experience any of the symptoms listed above as serious side effects. Talk to your doctor about the risks of taking this medication.

Progesterone may cause other side effects. Call your doctor if you have any unusual problems while taking this medication.

If you experience a serious side effect, you or your doctor may send a report to the Food and Drug Administration's (FDA) MedWatch Adverse Event Reporting program online [at http://www.fda.gov/MedWatch/report.htm] or by phone [1-800-332-1088].

What storage conditions are needed for this medicine?

Keep this medication in the container it came in, tightly closed, and out of reach of children. Store it at room temperature and away from excess heat and moisture (not in the bathroom). Throw away any medication that is outdated or no longer needed. Talk to your pharmacist about the proper disposal of your medication.

In case of emergency/overdose

In case of overdose, call your local poison control center at 1-800-222-1222. If the victim has collapsed or is not breathing, call local emergency services at 911.

What other information should I know?

Keep all appointments with your doctor.

Before having any laboratory test or biopsy (removal of tissue for testing), tell your doctor and the laboratory personnel that you are taking progesterone.

Do not let anyone else take your medication. Ask your pharmacist any questions you have about refilling your prescription.

Brand name(s):

Prometrium®  This is what I took -

My 2nd IUI

THE SECOND TIME AROUND - MY 2nd IUI


I just had my period and it started on Friday 16th.. Boy! was it painful.

I cramped a lot more than I have done in a long time. I also had really heavy bleeding and honestly, I think that something happened but it didn't "take". I never bleed this much.. Maybe
something started but somehow my body didn't keep it.. I am really going to try to take care of myself this time. I have been really agitated lately, angry, rushed and upset and this could have been
something that caused it not to work. So..... I am going to slow down and baby myself.

Ok.

Tommorrow..I start my clomid cycle yet again.

I hope it works.... I asked my doctor to call in a generic prescription. I didn't think about it before, but Clomid does have generics.

Here we go again. I am going to try to be optimistic.

FERTILITY PHARMACIES

These are a list of pharmacies that specialize in fertility drugs.  If you get your fertility drugs at your local pharmacies, they do not always give you the best deals.

These pharmacies have a better relationship with the drug companies for these particular drugs and can get them at a reduced price.

Try contacting each one and you can order over the phone. Some may not even charge for overnight delivery.


Metro 1-888-258-0106

Shraft 1-800-876-4545

Aptorp 1-800-755-3582


I actually got this information from fertility lifelines. So these a legitimate companies.

MY flow is here...This sucks

I took a pregancy test on the 13th and it was negative. I was so so angry. I feel better today..

I had absolutely nothing.  just cramping, back hurting, tired and more cramping..

I called my doctor because it was starting to drive me crazy..

It was day 31, 32, 33 and I finally started to spot a little. The doctor told me that if I dont start my period by

day 35, he would check me for pregancy and then if I am not, he would give me meds so that my period

would come down.  Today, my spotting is heavier, brown and now red. so my period is here.. crazy. If it gets
really heavy then I will be sure and I will start counting today as day 1 (day one is the day when you see it

on your pad), and then on day 5 which would be Tues, I would start my clomid cycle again and then the

entire cycle again. I heard that it doesn't work well on women my age. But who knows.. this will be my last try

and next time I will start IVF..  I truly hope that i am pregnant by my birthday... I want to be pregnant this year

and in another two years pregnant again.   I want to know why it took so long for my period to come??? it is

always on time. I had to be the medicine. I heard that it takes between 1 - 3 times for a woman to get

pregnant...Lord, he is probably going to give me... a big increase in my meds... I hope I dont end up with 6

children, but if I do..I will love all of them and take care of them.. some way.  Right now I am trying to change

day jobs... to get a big increase in my salary.. and I am done with my part-time job at the store..

I am applying for another part-job where I can work at home..  I need this because if worse comes to worse

and I am sick and have to be on disability... heavens knows what might happen. I can at least continue

to work at home on the computer instead of standing on my feet in a store.  I got to prepare for everything.


another  $1500.00 - ready to pour down the drain....

total bills  $2745.00 to pay off by the end of the year. - I wonder if this is tax deductible?



I have to stay positive... i have to stay positive.... I have to stay positive...

TODAY

I was upset this morning as you can see with my earlier blog.. I am not going to let this beat me. I am going to do one more IUI and that is it.. I do feel a little hopeful because I found a doctor in Arlington/Irving TX that will do IVF for 4,800 plus medications (I can probably get them somewhere cheaper...) anyway, I am feeling a little better.

I am starting to cramp a little.. hopefully that is a sign of an period.

if I dont have one by next week I am calling my doc.. - monday.

Just Damn Angry

I am mad at myself.. I am really suprised at how I am feeling to day. The doctor said that they would give me meds to start my period if it doesn't start on its own within 7 - 10 days.  I am so suprised at how angry I am. Really angry. I am mad at the world.  I wonder to myself... why did I wait? maybe it could have been different... 1200.00 in the whole... and now I have to do it again.
I dont know how I am going to get the money.  

A co-worker has pictures of her child all over her cube. She took some more pictures and was showing me.. I tried so hard to gush too, but I couldn't. I just said trying to forge a smile
"how cute".

She is a sweet person, but....

I dont want to see any of your child's darn pictures, I don't want to see your pregnant belly, I dont want to hear nothing about children, babies..  

leave me the HELL alone.

MONEY $$$$$$$

I am trying figure out some ways to make some money. The money on the part time job is coming too slow and it is too little. I am looking into sales. Maybe I can selling something that
has a good commission. I have to pay for another IUI in October.

I need money.

my sister helped.

She told me to pull it together. This is just my first time. Most of her friends (she told me names) didn't get pregnant the first time. One actually went ahead and adopted and finally got pregnant
within a year after she adopted another child. My sister said that it was probably stress. She got pregnant naturally even though she had been going back and forth to the doctor and it didn't work. My sister said that she was not worrying about it any longer. Going back and forth to the doctor, on meds, waiting and waiting and waiting. She told me to relax and try again..

Pull myself together.. With my luck, it wasn't going to work the first time... just keep trying.


I will.


1500.00 down the drain....

i guess

I guess that I will try at least two more times..

I don't know how I will afford IVF.

$12,000?

NEGATIVE

I tested myself this morning and it was......


Negative.


and I got up and still went to work. Both jobs.

I cried a little and then told myself I would try again. So I am planning to start in October and I think with a new doctor.

Next time I am not going to tell anyone what I am doing because I hate to have to let everyone know......and then listen to them saying "I am sorry for you"


why did I wait this long to start...

today I am empty.

I guess I will pretty much be a zombie most of this week.  I need to figure out a way to pay this back and then get enough to start again.

Paying for the procedure

I saved up 300.00 from a part time job an the rest I put on a AMEX.  so I have about 1245.00 to pay off..

I had to wait about 7 days to test for pregancy..

My FIRST IUI

That monday I had my first IUI. They washed the sperm and I went to my doctor's office.  He put me in stirrups and then had a little tube where he injected it into me. It took only about 15 minutes.
I had to lay on the table for about 10 minutes and I went back to work. I cramped and cramped at work. I called my doctor to ask if I can take something for the pain and he said Tyenol. So I took that.   The next week he wanted me to take a blood test - about seven days after that to test for projesterone levels. Having high projesterone allows for a good place for a embryo to begin growing.  When you have a period you projesterone drops and the lining goes away.  So she gave me a test and if it was too low then I needed to take those tablets. Anyway,
she called in the meds and I began taking the tablets. VAGINALLY... That means I had to take my finger and push the tablet up in my vaginal area and go to sleep. I did that every night.

I was scared at first to take the pills because I went to webmd and they had all the symptoms and things that could possible go wrong.. It scared me quite a bit. But I braced myself and took it anyway.

It costed about 11.00 at the pharmacy.

Total cost of this procedure - about 1500.00