NEGATIVE

I tested myself this morning and it was......


Negative.


and I got up and still went to work. Both jobs.

I cried a little and then told myself I would try again. So I am planning to start in October and I think with a new doctor.

Next time I am not going to tell anyone what I am doing because I hate to have to let everyone know......and then listen to them saying "I am sorry for you"


why did I wait this long to start...

today I am empty.

I guess I will pretty much be a zombie most of this week.  I need to figure out a way to pay this back and then get enough to start again.